you, your sex is on fire.

UGHHHHHHHHH.

That's all I can say to sum up the last few weeks. I haven't been writing on here simply because things have been SO hectic. Between two of my grandparents dying, and jail, and everything else, I haven't had time to even try to think about anything.

Yes. Jail. My stupid DUI finally caught back up to me, and apparently I failed to appear at a hearing for it. Warrant was issued, and I spent 10 days in county sitting out my bond. I guess it wasn't too bad though, I had alot of time to think about things. I'd like to think that I'm being a bigger, better person because of it. I decided to stop being mad at Ian, to stop fighting with him over everything. I'm too old to be bitter like that. So, I'm not anymore. I can pick up the phone to call my daughter, and have a civil conversation with him. I think that he believes it's gonna lead somewhere again, and the thought of that just makes me laugh until I cry.

Speaking of my daughter, I finally got to see her on Saturday. It was the first time in almost a month that I'd seen her, and omg, she's gotten so big.

Ellie, telling "Wonka" (my Granny) "I DON'T WANNA!!"

Eating cookies.

In time-out. She looks so little here.
Looks can be deceiving.

Because she insisted that Uncle Bob take pictures of her with Minnie.

"It's Mommy's turn!!" - Ellie.

So yeah. I dunno. Things are alot more simple right now. I ran into B a few weeks ago, and it was ... strange to say the least. He calls me over to where he'd been standing, scoops me up in a hug, gives me a big kiss, and tells me that J is the stupidest guy ever for letting me go. That was the same weekend that D, Kami, and D's roomies all went to Saddle Ranch and got so tanked that there apparently is YouTube proof of the things that I did.

Then last night I got drunk (again) and ended up talking to Justin all night in somebody's backyard. I'd forgotten how amazing the simple life is.

You know, one of these days I'll get it all figured out. Until then, I have to admit, I'm enjoying myself vastly.