Changes.

So I've been trying to search for the words to explain the last few weeks. Words are usually something I've always been good at. Maintaining my grasp on reality, on the other hand, is not.

So a little over a week ago now, I moved out. It was brutal, and it was heartwrenching to have to leave behind my child -- out of necessity, not want -- but leaving is probably the best decision I've made in a long time. I knew things wouldn't ever work out with him.

I met someone, who at the time, I thought was worth wasting my time on. J was -- is -- the most amazing man I think I've ever met. He was kind, and sweet, and considerate, not to mention a sexy ass firefighter. Lol. But, c'est la vie, story of my life, something went wrong. This time, though, I'm not sure what happened. J is someone that I could see myself really acually being happy with. Stay tuned, who knows what will happen with that.

So I'm in the process of looking for a job, and let me tell you, it is NOT a good situation. I've gotten more rejection e-mails than I can count. Maybe I shouldn't have gone over a year without working. I never foresaw this all coming though.